Love referred
“For all of eternity in its entirety is not as worthy as the day on
which Song of Songs was given to Israel, for all the Writings are holy, but
Song of Songs is the Holy of Holies.” (Rabbi Akiva, 1-2 c. AD)
As it is often stated by both Jewish and Christian authors ‘Song of
Songs’ is unlike any other book in the Old Testament. It does not relate the
convoluted history of humanity like Genesis. It does not proclaim the rules which
God wishes His people to follow if they want to remain His chosen possession
like Exodus. It does not vent the enormous hurt and anger of God Who is
betrayed by His people again and again like books of Prophets. It is true that
several prophets described the relationship of God with Israel in spousal
terms. While those terms were not a mere metaphor but hinted the metaphysical
reality, the nature of love of God for humanity (which can be the most
adequately described in terms of the spousal love), the focus of the prophets
were the unfolding events in a particular time of history of Israel and in the
future time (the coming of the Messiah). The references to the jealous divine
Spouse and the unfaithful bride, even whore, where serving as an apt
description of the Israel’s conduct towards God. Speaking about times, the
prophet’s books are obviously relevant to our time and till the end of times
because they convey the human attitude to God that, like a downfall spiral,
repeats in times and will repeat itself until the time will be no more. ‘Song
of Songs’, it seems to me, belongs to that “no more time” category. It is now
and it will always be, out of time = timeless, as any encounter of a soul with
God, in love. Or two humans in love. Or, to include both, it is two persons in
love.
‘Song of Songs’ is the epitome of simplicity. There is absolutely nothing
there but love between the two irresistibly drawn towards each other. The nature of love of God for Israel (Judaic
interpretation)/love of God for a human soul and of this soul– for God (Christian
interpretation) is described in the language of two lovers intoxicated by each
other’s response. Meaning, God reveals himself in the simplest possible way here i.e. his self-revelation is about his
own essence (God is Love) acting in love towards a human soul which is, being
an image of God (Who is Love) is capable of answering Him with that love which He
gave her in advance. What I am trying to say here is that the very essence of God i.e. something truly unthinkable, something
the thought of which makes a believer tremble and shrink in realisation of own
smallness, can be conveyed by the very
human erotic love known to anyone. And not just conveyed but experienced as
well.
The word “experienced” is the key here. God refers to the way he loves
via a human experience of mutual love. God loves His bride, a human soul, like a human bridegroom loves his bride. A soul loves her
God like she loves her bridegroom. What I am saying here is that God reveals
the nature of His love via the reference to the desire of the reciprocal
relationship and to the bliss of the experience
of the reciprocal erotic love. He does not describe
His love but he says, via a human bridegroom: “Come then, my
beloved, my
lovely one, come. For see,
winter is past, the rains are over and gone.
Flowers are appearing on the
earth. The season
of glad songs has come, the
cooing of the turtledove is heard in our land. The
fig tree is forming
its first figs and the blossoming vines
give out their fragrance.
Come then, my beloved, my lovely one, come.
'My dove, hiding in the clefts
of the rock, in the
coverts of the cliff, show me your
face, let me hear
your voice; for your voice is sweet and your face is
lovely.”
Reading those
words one, whether he wants it or not, to some extent already experiences the
love of God, via his or her memories or premonitions of being in love. This is
why I think Rabbi Akiva calls ‘Song of Song’ the holiest of holies i.e. a sacred
chamber where God dwells in this world and where the encounter with Him can
take a place. ‘Song of Songs’ makes love of God felt or incarnate so to speak,
via a corporal human being(s).
‘Song of Songs’
to me then appears to be the suddenly breaking through the sweat and blood of
the Old Testament God’s dream about relationship with us as He desired it to be
when He created us in His own image. Paradoxically, a stubborn insistence of
the divine Lover Who is unable to give up his dream seems to draw a hope from
an ideal of the reciprocal human love. It is also His eternal promise to the
humanity who, in the rest pf the Old Testament, appears to be hopelessly
incapable of understanding it.
Love incarnated
Strangely enough, I have never noticed the matching sudden break into
or, better to say, “a sudden dip into the mystery of the inner life of God” in
the New Testament until recently when I heard the lines from the chapter 15 of
the Gospel of John read in the church, on the fifth week after Easter. I have countless
times heard them being read during Passion Week but only then I noticed how
much they stand out, even in the Gospel of John which, to me, is the most
humanely intimate and fragile and yet conveys the most sublime mysteries of God,
two always go together clarifying each other:
“I have loved you just as the Father has loved Me. Remain in My love.
This is My commandment: love one another, as I have loved you.”
This time those
words struck me not because of what
was pronounced but because of my sudden realization that their meaning and
implications were entirely dependent on the One
who said them. There is absolutely nothing descriptive here like “selfless
love” etc. The argument that the future Crucifixion sets the theme of the
selfless love does not work here because the disciples at that point are clearly
unable to comprehend it so it is pointless to appeal to it; Christ speak to
them here as with (in His own words) “little children” who are scared of coming
separation and possible abandonment. He reassures them that they are to be with
Him again; the promise is made on the basis of His unfailing love for them as
they have known it until this very minute “I will not leave you orphans; I will
come back to you.” Then He, drawing oh His love for His disciples, opens to
them the mystery of His relationship with His Father and, as a conclusion,
brings the apostles into that relationship in His priestly prayer “May they all
be one, just as, Father, You are in Me and I am in You, so that they also may
be in us”. I went ahead to soon here; what I am trying to say is that he
revelation of God about Himself and His idea of His creation, just like in
‘Song of Songs’, is revealed here in the simplest notions of the reciprocal
love known by experience. Unlike ‘Song of Songs’ though the mystery of God’s
love is not revealed via a reference to
the human lovers but is incarnated in the Person of Christ and experienced as
such. But, if the decuples indeed experienced the love of Christ in flesh and
blood and hence had the direct experience how can we do this and what is our
reference then?
It is the rhetoric of course. Christianity continues not because of enduring doctrine but because the love of Christ can and is experienced by all who genuinely wishes to do so. Yet Christ said “love one another as I loved you”. So, is it possible to experience the love of Christ while His disciples hate each other? I think the answer is yes (although it is inhumanely difficult) as long as there is a clear understanding that it is not a normal state of affairs and that hatred is not love Christ spoke about. But what if this hatred or mockery of love is an acceptable norm?
It is the rhetoric of course. Christianity continues not because of enduring doctrine but because the love of Christ can and is experienced by all who genuinely wishes to do so. Yet Christ said “love one another as I loved you”. So, is it possible to experience the love of Christ while His disciples hate each other? I think the answer is yes (although it is inhumanely difficult) as long as there is a clear understanding that it is not a normal state of affairs and that hatred is not love Christ spoke about. But what if this hatred or mockery of love is an acceptable norm?
This is no
longer rhetoric. For some reason, it was exactly what came to my mind when I
heard “This is My commandment: love one another, as I have loved you.” The line was read by a priest from my paper
‘Antipriest’ which explored the phenomenon of reducing, obliterating, and eventual
complete “doing away” with Christ by a covert narcissistic priest, not by his conscious
deliberate action but by the virtue of him simply being himself. Indeed, narcissism is the exact opposite of
selflessness; Jesus Christ being the epitome of selfless love is the most
extreme opposite of a narcissist. They are mutually exclusive; a narcissist
cannot reduce himself even slightly to allow Christ to step in so there is no
place for Him in his world even if this world happens to be set in a frame of the
Christian Church. And, since the narcissist priest in question was covert i.e.
he used the borrowed Christian goodness to mask himself/to merge with the
environment and, in the liturgical setting, he is indeed an icon of Christ, it
appeared that he, in the absence of Christ, naturally assumed His role. That,
in turn, initiated the process of a slow formation of a pseudo-Christ, a human
in a priestly dress of Christ so to speak.
That forming of a pseudo-Christ out of himself, by a covert narcissist priest,
was essentially replacing Christ with a construct made by a fallen human being.
Instead of Our Lord – kind, cutting through to the soul, angry, sorrowful,
tender – everything what is human but never cold or inhumane, always fully
human and fully divine – the church was presented with the fragments of
humanistic sayings, some new age wordings, some pieces of the Scripture which
miraculously lost all its potency, some DIY stuff etc. – in one word, with some
formation of mismatching parts put together and threatening to fall apart if the
heart beats a bit louder, the word “love” written with a lipstick holding it
all. Holding – but not well enough to prevent the appearance of the occasional cracks,
revealing something dark beneath it, quite disturbing.
What I am trying
to convey by those words is that, even if the Antipriest succeeded in banishing Christ from the church, he failed to
produce the matching in statue imposter, the one whose person is fit to
correspond (albeit mockingly) to the Person of Christ, in both His humanity and
His divinity – i.e. one who can fully
animate the idea of a pseudo-Christ.
It seems to me
that the act of animation was exactly what happened when I heard the words:
“I have loved you just as the Father has loved me. Remain in My love.
This is My commandment: love one another, as I have loved you.”
For a moment I
perceived those words as they were said not by Christ but by the Antipriest. I
can only speculate why quite unthinkable happened i.e. those two figures merged
– probably because I could detect the emotions of hatred in the voice of the
Antipriest. But even if there was no hatred, there was definitely zero human
warmth nevertheless – striking absence of a normal emotional human response
that those words of Christ normally cause in the Christians who hear them
including a priest who reads them. Perhaps it is even easier for a priest to
respond emotionally to those words because he, being ordained by the bishop
i.e. being a link in a chain of the apostolic succession he can easily imagine
himself being one of the apostles or their successor who must continue passing
that love of Christ to that very congregation to which he is reading the words
of the Lord now. Needless to say, those
words themselves radiate love which is very palpable unless someone destroys
it, via conveying the emotion opposite to love.
That was
something I suddenly understood: the apostles first experienced the love (including
the emotion) of Christ and only then they could grasp the meaning of His words.
Same is with other Christians, with us who did not encounter the Saviour in
flesh and blood: we are first grasped by the personality of Christ, by His Love
and Him Who is Love and only then, being turned to Him as a particle of metal
turns to the magnet, we can truly begin to comprehend the meaning of His words.
Remove Love and all will fall apart.
This is what
happened to me I believe; the only difference is that I was grasped by the
emotion totally contrary to love/devoid of love and by someone who appeared at
that time to be entirely inhumane. The contrary to the love of Christ emotion
turned the words of Christ into their opposite without changing a single
letter. And this change occurred when Christ was relating the most intimate
things about Himself and God to his closest cycle of disciples, in the Gospel
of St John.
In the synoptic
Gospels Christ is always engaged with the others, feeding, exorcising, healing,
teaching, pronouncing the divine judgement and so on. He is always going
somewhere or being ceased by the crowds or is confronted by those who are at
enmity to him. He very sparsely speaks of Himself; when He does it He
highlights His subordinate, to His Father, position (“I came not to do my will
by my Father’s”). The Son of God, the preexistent, has come to serve and not to
be served, to deny Oneself even to death, He insists. His discourse and actions leave no point of
entry for a narcissistic spirit anywhere in the Gospels but one. Strangely
enough, it appears that only when Christ speaks of Himself and His
relationships with the others in the simplest terms of mutual love – when the
Son of God surrenders Himself to the others in the act of love – the evil can
enter.
Let us consider
His words from the Gospel of John, chapter 15 (New Jerusalem Bible) and their
natural reading by a narcissist [in brown]:
I am the true vine, and my Father is the vinedresser.
The vine
= me is primary, the vinedresser is my servant.
Remain in Me, as I in you. As a branch cannot bear fruit all by itself,
unless it remains part of the vine, neither can you unless you remain in Me.
Stay
with me. If you abandon me you will not be able to do anything here.
I am the vine, you are the branches. Whoever remains in Me, with Me in
him, bears fruit in plenty; for cut off from Me you can do nothing.
You are
no equal to me. Approve me and stick to me and you can do anything here; work
for me and you will do much; if you contradict me I will make your life here impossible.
Anyone who does not remain in Me is thrown away like a branch -- and
withers; these branches are collected and thrown on the fire and are burnt.
Those
who do not obey me are thrown away like rubbish; you will be like destroyed if
you contradict me.
If you remain in Me and My words remain in you, you may ask for whatever
you please and you will get it.
Submit
to me in all and you will have all.
I have loved you just as the Father has loved Me. Remain in my love.
I have “loved”
you just as the father has “loved” me. Remain in my “love”.
If you keep my commandments you will remain in My love, just as I have
kept my Father's commandments and remain in His love.
If you
obey my orders you will remain in my “love” just like I have obeyed my father’s
orders and remained in his “love”.
This is my commandment: love one another, as I have loved you.
This is
my commandment: “love” one another, as I have “loved” you.
No one can have greater love than to lay down his life for his friends.
You must
sacrifice yourselves for me.
You are my friends, if you do what I command you.
You are
my friends, if you do it.
You did not choose Me, no, I chose you; and I commissioned you to go out
and to bear fruit, fruit that will last; so that the Father will give you
anything you ask him in my name.
Feel privileged that I chose you. Bring me the profit; by doing so buy the right to ask the father all you wish in my name.
Feel privileged that I chose you. Bring me the profit; by doing so buy the right to ask the father all you wish in my name.
Anyone who hates Me hates my Father.
Anyone who hates me hates my father.
Anyone who hates me hates my father.
I must say this exercise made me quite sick because those
“interpretations” are nothing else but the blasphemy against the Love of God
via the denial of love in Christ. Indeed, what makes a difference is the
presence or the absence of selfless love in those lines. Noteworthy, the closer
to the most intimate statement of Christ about love: His Father’s love for Him,
His love for His decuples, that very Love His disciples must love each other,
the easier it is to swap the meaning to the opposite without changing a single word:
I have loved you just as the Father has loved Me. Remain in My love.
I have “loved”
you just as the father has “loved” me. Remain in my “love”.
This is my commandment: love one another, as I have loved you.
This is
my commandment: “love” one another, as I have “loved” you.
Anyone who hates me hates my Father.
Anyone who loves me loves my father.
Anyone who loves me loves my father.
The lines change their meaning in accordance with the meaning of the
word “love”, as one understands it. Christ defines love by Himself, by how His
disciples experienced Him = His love and he makes their experience of His love
the way of knowing His Father. There are no definitions but Christ alone.
This experience of love of
Christ [together with the fact of the Resurrection] is precisely what enables
apostles to go on. This love of God literally moves them, especially after the
Pentecost when the Holy Spirit = Love goes into them, and then from them to the
others; this is how the Church began and is still going on. It is a kernel of
Christianity; all the rest has a source in the one’s experience of the love of
Christ. So, if we swap that kernel, the experience of the love of Christ, with
anything else, the whole faith (and Church) collapses, and this is precisely
what happens when those lines are read by the narcissist priests whose “love”
is the exact opposite of love – hatred:
I have
hated you just as the father has hated me. Remain in my hatred.
This is
my commandment: hate one another, as I have hated you.
Those lines are actually a precise description of how a narcissist relates
to his child and how then the narcissist child will relate to the others. It
does not matter that a narcissist calls it “love” or that he thinks it is
“love”; a normal individual experiences a narcissist’s “love” as something
quite repugnant, strangling – if not hatred than something deathly = the opposite
of love that is a source of life.
And, because a narcissist is god and to love him means to love “God” = “father”, the word “hate” in the third pivotal line may as well be changed into its opposite, “love” – just as the word “love” in the first two lines changes into “hate” – thus making the mirror image complete:
Anyone who loves me loves god.
That is:
Anyone
who loves me loves my father.
God the Father and human father merge here so as Christ and Antiprist. And, just like Christ makes His Father known to His disciples via their experience of His love for them, Antiprist makes his own father known via the congregation’s experience of his “love” = hatred for them. I am not speaking here about the human father of Antipriest but about the father of the antipode of Christ whom Antipriest makes known to the congregation, the one who is defined by his hatred for humanity including Antipriest himself.
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